I can’t believe I haven’t been writing in more than a month! Wow. And now that I realise, it has been as long since I’ve been using my personal laptop, at home, just for the sake of chatting, surfing the Web or blogging. So, it may look like as I’m no longer into writing and sharing, but it isn’t so, really. I would be more honest in saying that I haven’t made the time for any of it.
Was it because I got a little unwilling to staying on my own and discoursing about some of my thoughts (God only knows that they keep flowing and flowing)? Maybe. Was it because I still don’t ace at time management? Most likely. Was it because I had decided that I’d rather spend the time that I would usually dedicate to my own benefit and virtual activity, with a beloved one instead? Definitely.
And yet. I’m here this morning. Quite happy frankly to have this time for me, alone, just as if I would sit in silence to meditate or even to confess. Speaking of confession, I’ll go to see my priest this afternoon to vocal my sins, to pray the Lord for the graces I’ve been receiving, and to ask for forgiveness. Yes, I feel full of guilt for the promises I haven’t kept, for the diplomatic and white lies I have said, for the help I haven’t given, for the easy and radical judgment I have had towards some persons, for taking without giving, for not allowing the time to nourish my faith and to “listen”…and the list goes on.
And still, I want to ask for more. For more than I already have. For more happiness: that the person I care a lot about will come and celebrate Easter with me, with my family and friends. I so wish that this miracle could happen. I never thought that it would make me so sad if he refuses to.
Tonight, we’ll be celebrating Jesus’ resurrection: Jesus’ victory against Death together with the glorification of God’s reign. A reign of ultimate and perfect Love, Redemption, Forgiveness and Hope.
One of the best way to experience God’s Salvation is through the Holy Sacrament of Reconciliation. If you have time today, just go…..even if you haven’t been in years. If I can, you can as well 
You’ll be surprised how amazing you’ll feel afterwards. That’s what I’ll be looking forward to. And you?
You’re all in my prayers…
